Give Me a Break

Before I got CRPS in my feet I had no problem with weight gain. But immobility over the past six years has caused me to become morbidly obese with Type 2 Diabetes. Oh, and there are four other rare diseases I’ve been diagnosed with too. Five rare diseases. How is that even possible?

I am definitely eating my emotions.

I have developed Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) because of the hopelessness CRPS creates. Getting a CRPS diagnosis is not a death sentence but, in many ways, it feels it might as well be. CRPS is known as the suicide disease for a reason. The CRPS prognosis is grim to say the least, and hope can become an ever-fleeting notion.

I want off the merry-go-round of not walking because of the pain, gaining weight from not walking, and not walking because of the pain, and so on. I know logically how to dismount the catch-22 spin but can’t seem to jump.

So, I write.